Once his new “Assistant” was gone, Dorien fell back onto his couch once again.
“What the fuck am I doing?” he said with a sigh. Lit a cigarette from a nearby package and put his head in his hands.
Things had gotten so complicated… so fucked up, if he was to be totally honest. How had he let it come to this?
He took a drag on the cigarette and let his mind wander.
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“It’s beautiful…” Gen said, mouth slightly agape, “What is it?”
Dorien crept closer to the bush slowly, eyes wide. There was a soft flutter of purple and silver from the shrub.
“Danaus arcala,” he said breathlessly, “It’s an arch butterfly. I’ve never seen one before…” He put his hands out in front of him and inched forward again.
“What are you doing?” Gennie hissed from behind him.
“I’m gonna catch it. I want a closer look.”
“No! You’ll hurt it!”
“I won’t,” Dorien scoffed, “I just want to study it. I’ll let it go after.”
Suddenly the iridescent insect lifted off the bush and took wing. Dorien scrambled to run after it, with Gennie trailing behind him, looking worried.
“Careful!” she shouted as the young boy bounded along the grass between the trees of the small forest near the Doucette farmstead.
Dorien was not a strong child, but he had always been quick and agile, able to keep pace even with his taller cousin in footraces. In a few moments he had closed with the butterfly and leapt forward, cupping his hands around it carefully.
As he landed, however, his foot caught on a tree root and he went tumbling to the ground, crashing through underbrush and landing hard on his shoulder, tearing the thin fabric of his shirt on a branch.
“Uff!” he exclaimed as the wind was knocked out of him and the insect was knocked from his grasp. As he lay dazed on the ground, Gennie ran up behind him in a panic.
“You killed it!” she said, aghast.
Dorien managed to pull himself to his feet and looked around, stunned.
“No, I… I didn’t… I fell…”
Gen cupped her hands gently around something on the ground and brought it up to show him.
“You killed her… poor thing…”
Dorien peered into his cousin’s cupped hands, but instead of the butterfly, it was the tiny body of a nude woman, her long red hair cascading over her iridescent fairie wings.
“Emelinda?” Dorien asked, confused.
“You killed her…” Gennie repeated, “Just like you killed them…”
“No! I didn’t mean to… it was an accident… I never meant…”
Gennie’s hands began smoking, and then flames licked at her fingers.
“You never mean to…” she said, tears rolling from her eyes as the flames engulfed her hands and the body within them, “But you do. It’s your nature, Dorien. Misery follows in your wake.”
“No!” He shouted, backing up. The trees seemed closer now, crowding in around him. “I… I’ll fix it… I’ll go back!”
The flames were crackling now, roaring up from Gennie’s hands. The skin had charred and was falling off her bones. The smell of scorched flesh was overpowering. She reached one skeletal hand out to her cousin.
“You can’t go back, Dorien. You can never go back. You have to go forward. Take my hand…”
Hesitantly, Dorien reached out to her, felt the flames kiss his fingertips, felt his skin blister and peel.
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“Fuck!” Dorien yelled as he bolted upright on the couch. His fingers throbbed with pain and his heart was racing in his chest. He looked down at the table and saw the glowing ember of a cigarette butt. It had burned down to his fingers, scorching them and startling him awake.
“Son of a bitch…”
He got up and got a cool, wet rag to wrap around them to take away the sting.
So much for sleep.
“What the fuck am I doing?” he said with a sigh. Lit a cigarette from a nearby package and put his head in his hands.
Things had gotten so complicated… so fucked up, if he was to be totally honest. How had he let it come to this?
He took a drag on the cigarette and let his mind wander.
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“It’s beautiful…” Gen said, mouth slightly agape, “What is it?”
Dorien crept closer to the bush slowly, eyes wide. There was a soft flutter of purple and silver from the shrub.
“Danaus arcala,” he said breathlessly, “It’s an arch butterfly. I’ve never seen one before…” He put his hands out in front of him and inched forward again.
“What are you doing?” Gennie hissed from behind him.
“I’m gonna catch it. I want a closer look.”
“No! You’ll hurt it!”
“I won’t,” Dorien scoffed, “I just want to study it. I’ll let it go after.”
Suddenly the iridescent insect lifted off the bush and took wing. Dorien scrambled to run after it, with Gennie trailing behind him, looking worried.
“Careful!” she shouted as the young boy bounded along the grass between the trees of the small forest near the Doucette farmstead.
Dorien was not a strong child, but he had always been quick and agile, able to keep pace even with his taller cousin in footraces. In a few moments he had closed with the butterfly and leapt forward, cupping his hands around it carefully.
As he landed, however, his foot caught on a tree root and he went tumbling to the ground, crashing through underbrush and landing hard on his shoulder, tearing the thin fabric of his shirt on a branch.
“Uff!” he exclaimed as the wind was knocked out of him and the insect was knocked from his grasp. As he lay dazed on the ground, Gennie ran up behind him in a panic.
“You killed it!” she said, aghast.
Dorien managed to pull himself to his feet and looked around, stunned.
“No, I… I didn’t… I fell…”
Gen cupped her hands gently around something on the ground and brought it up to show him.
“You killed her… poor thing…”
Dorien peered into his cousin’s cupped hands, but instead of the butterfly, it was the tiny body of a nude woman, her long red hair cascading over her iridescent fairie wings.
“Emelinda?” Dorien asked, confused.
“You killed her…” Gennie repeated, “Just like you killed them…”
“No! I didn’t mean to… it was an accident… I never meant…”
Gennie’s hands began smoking, and then flames licked at her fingers.
“You never mean to…” she said, tears rolling from her eyes as the flames engulfed her hands and the body within them, “But you do. It’s your nature, Dorien. Misery follows in your wake.”
“No!” He shouted, backing up. The trees seemed closer now, crowding in around him. “I… I’ll fix it… I’ll go back!”
The flames were crackling now, roaring up from Gennie’s hands. The skin had charred and was falling off her bones. The smell of scorched flesh was overpowering. She reached one skeletal hand out to her cousin.
“You can’t go back, Dorien. You can never go back. You have to go forward. Take my hand…”
Hesitantly, Dorien reached out to her, felt the flames kiss his fingertips, felt his skin blister and peel.
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“Fuck!” Dorien yelled as he bolted upright on the couch. His fingers throbbed with pain and his heart was racing in his chest. He looked down at the table and saw the glowing ember of a cigarette butt. It had burned down to his fingers, scorching them and startling him awake.
“Son of a bitch…”
He got up and got a cool, wet rag to wrap around them to take away the sting.
So much for sleep.